Learning Curves

Dard samet ke sare jahan ke,
Jab kuch naa ban saka to mera dil bana diya.

All through the last 20 days I have been alone most of the times and had enough time to think and ponder over the mistakes i have commited, the good things i missed out, about the people surrounding me, about my family, my future. Bloody everything.

Mistakes: Actually I in my heart tried to be too nice, which people dont like and somehow i think i earned the villain's(not openly) tag. Had i been voracious about what i think is good or bad that might have been better. Secondly, I in this point about enjoying about my life i lost too precious time with friends in so called enjoying. I should have limited myself about that time and put atleast half the time in studies.

Good Things I missed out: First and foremost, simple n straight I lost out on the joy of getting the job. Happiness of scoring high. If it existed then the quality time with my batchmates. Also about using four years to learn something big about computers and hopefully could have developed something. If all this could have happened then what really missed is the happiness that all this could have brought in my mama's and papa's eyes. ufff!!!!

About the people surrounding me: Ram Niwas Asawa, I trusted him like anything. But that Big Bussinessman just lost it in the end. He is the person who is now looking through just money's eye. But I cann't overlook the beautiful times I had and enjoyed with him throughout the engineering. One of the few persons who valued the emotions. He used to stand for me throughout the 4 years. But he never really valued your opinion if it is against what he is thinkng which is the primary reason for his downfall. I only wish if he could really suceed in his ventures. I would in this case really like to be proved wrong. He from the initial times has this fetish for the money. Me Bewildered. He was not what he turned out to be. I can only say "If he could have trusted anyone".
Abhishek Vimal, in my eyes I have not seen a more dual (It means has more than one face) personality like him, but the best part about him is that his only visible part is his good one. He at times is envious of someone but through his expression's he looks to be the least concerned person about that. He don't at times think that what he is saying might be hurting someone. But he is quite a patient person. But one thing is for sure he has created a era around himself, that everyone is compelled to be attracted towards him. This person I have found out is the most eager one to roam about. Our trip to agra has been one of the happiest times I ever had. Anyway a fine dancer, par khud bhee apni degree mein kisi ke isharon pe nachtey reh gaye. I like you as you are, you don't need to add anything extra. A man with a lot of zing. I can only say "Taste it".
Alok Rajendra Agrawal, A man of few but stinging(+ve) words. I have never been with someone before who just likes and says about his mind as clearly as him. He might not be the first whom i would have walked to in my college with my problem, but i have tried to gain as much as possible from him(in connection to habits). Only person around me who is what he is. I can only say "Nice one if you can make him friend"
Abhishek Dubey, I would say I should not have been friendly or better said a freind of him, Because He is too difficult a personality for me, at times mean. He is still a mystery for me. He is the most temperamental person i have encountered but not with enough resources to support it. He speaks too much at times is unbearble and he thinks that he is too smart. That much smartness is common but he advertiss it too much. Anyway a smart guy. But jab kaam Nikalna ho toh ussey badhkar koi nahin. If I keep on praising him he will be all right, the moment I or for that anyone opens his mouth against him he takes that person as his anti. Hey man as a friends we also have the right to criticise you. Par shayar logon ka koi bharosa nahin. Winston Churchill has something to say about you “Criticism may not be agreeable, but it is necessary. It fulfils the same function as pain in the human body. It calls attention to an unhealthy state of things.” As such sanju (his nickname) is a nice person. There is nothing bad about him. personally my relation with my roommate sanju has been in turmoil for most of the times. But then that is symbol of a vibrant relation. I can only say "Be friendly at Own Risk".
Varun Roy, Someone has censored me to write about this person.
Munish Sikka, Ahhhh now i am happy ... Sweetu, One of the two person who does not think bad about anyone. Simple and straight, will help you if there are not any constraints. I will not say anything more about him. I can only say "Just Own It".
Himanshu Singh Solanki, philosophy is his forte. Quite a helpful guy. He has too much Inside him. Hardworking. Should rely more on himself not someone another. Actually he can and he loves also. There is nothing hazardous about him. I owe a great deal to him. I can only say "Harmless".

My future: This is the biggest thing about which i am in dark. Nothing seems to be going great at the moment as oppurtunity after oppurtunity is slipping out of my hands. I need to get serious and at the moment i will like to give my GRE exam. Then moving out of this country for 10 years, after that i will ideally like to settle back in Punjab as a farmer.

Naa jane ashk se aakhon me kyon hain aaye huye,
Gujar gaya hai jamana tujhe bhulaye huye.

Life Rock's Again

Ohhh!!! It has been so simple i thought when everybody left for their homes that it would be difficult for me to stay here alone but look.. the transition has been so easy... when we parted it looked like the end of the world... but now life has again got into top gear, a lot of work has sprang up, examz are to be given, i have to meet a lot of relatives. So as The great Raj Kapoor said The Show must go on.

Rahul Is a Great Motivation.

Rahul "The Wall" Dravid completed the 10 years of great service to the nation. He averages highest in international cricket in last ten years while playing abroad(Great!). It was nothin sort of acheivement to keep team calm and composed in the aftermath of "Ganguly Disaster". Actually the era n ease which rahul has created around ... is what makes him the proud of our eyes... The difference which lies between saurav n rahul or for that matter earlier captains can be gauged from the fact that when earlier went abroad we used to say Will we be able to win? now that has changed to We will be able to win.
Rahul apart from being a great player is also a great source of motivation for me , for the way he fought back after being written off as a misfit for one day cricket. He just imbibe's the feeling of never giving up if I am down n out. Also never loose your cool in the face of adversity. While reading him , hearing him I just gets the feeling which I tries to incorporate in myself is that Life is lot bigger than winning and losing but winning should not make you loose contact with ground and after loss you should not be crestfallen. I will be more than happy if i am able to get even an iota of his qualities.
Kudos to this Great Servant of Indian Cricket.

Harpreet Rock's

Why?

For some last time i am just jostling with the question that why there are whopping 5 visitors to my blog since it's grand inception. I questioned myself and tried to find out the answers. I found out a very reliable excuse. Foremost reason I have come across is that the writers of most visited blogs write specifically on particular area. In this way they are able to create a niche for themselves. The reader having interest in that particular area is always going to be connected to that writing. So the visitor count is maintained. Then what happens in my case? The writings are wayward. One day it's Sonia Gandhi , on another it's cricket, then it's bollywood, n after that it moves to my friends, and how can it happen that i do not write about myself. So the coverage ground is too big.

Can anyone suggest a way out while remaining in this framework?

Appreciating My Past

It is easy to be negative about past mistakes and unhappiness. But it is much more healing to look at ourselves and our past in the light of experience, acceptance, and growth. Our past is a series of lessons that advance us to higher levels of living and loving. The relationships we entered, stayed in, or ended taught us necessary lessons.

Some of us have emerged from the most painful circumstances with strong insights about who we are and what we want. Our mistakes? Necessary. Our frustrations, failures, and sometimes stumbling attempts at growth and progress? Necessary too. Each step of the way, we learned. We went through exactly the experiences we need to, to become who we are today. Each step of the way, we progressed. Is our past a mistake? No. The only mistake we can make is mistaking that for the truth.

Today, God, help me let go of negative thoughts I may be harboring about my past circumstances or relationships. I can accept, with gratitude, all that has brought me to today.

"Friends"

Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence.
(Most importantly the last sentence.)

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence. Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there. " A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one.
Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They made me smile and encourage me to succeed. They lend an ear, they share words of praise and they always want to open their hearts to me."

Please forgive me if I have ever left a hole.

"Its easy to joke on a Sardar, but It's too difficult to be a Sardar"

12'0 clock
A man was standing at New Delhi station when his attention went towards a Sikh youth standing near him wearing a Black turban having a long beard and wearing a kirpan over his shirt looking similar to a terrorist. After a while, one local train arrived, which was totally packed. The Sikh youth tried to alight the train but failed to do so. Just then a voice was heard from the back coach 'Sardarji Barah Baj gaye' (Sir it's 12 o'clock!) The Sikh youth looked over at that voice maker who was a young Mischievous type of person and instead of showing any anger smiled towards him. The smile made was so enigmatic that it seemed as if some type of truth lies behind it. Not able to resist his temptation, the man walked towards him and asked why did he smile at that person who teased him. The Sikh youth replied, 'He was not teasing me but was asking for my Help' . The man was surprised with these words. The Sikh youth told him that there was a big history behind that which one should know. The man was eager to know the History and the Sikh youth narrated:
"During 17th Century, when Hindustan was ruled by Mughals, all the Hindu people were humiliated and were treated like animals. Mughals treated the Hindu women as there own property and were forcing all Hindus to accept Islam and even used to kill the people if theywere refusing to accept.That time, our ninth Guru, Sri Guru Teg Bahadarji came forward,in response to a request of some Kashmir Pandits to fight against all these cruel activities. Guruji told the Mughal emperor that if he could succeed in converting him to Islam, all the Hindus would accept the same. But, if he failed, he should stop all those activities . The Mughal emperor happily agreed to that but even after lots of torture to Guruji and his fellow members he failed to convert him to Islam and Guruji along with his other four fellow members, were tortured and sacrificed their lives in Chandni Chowk. Since the Mughals were unable to convert them to Islam they were assassinated.

Thus Guruji sacrificed his life for the protection of Hindu religion. Can anybody lay down his life and that too for the protection of another religion? This is the reason he is still remembered as "Hind Ki Chaddar", shield of India. For the sake of whom he had sacrificed his life, none of the them came forward to lift his body, fearing that they would also be assassinated. Seeing this incident our 10th Guruji! , Sri Guru Gobind Singhji (Son of Guru Teg Bahadarji) founder of khalsa made a resolution that he would convert his followers to such human beings who would not be able to hide themselves and could be easily located in thousands. At the start, the Sikhs were very few in numbers as they were fighting against the Mughal emperors. At that time, Nadir Shah raided Delhi in the year 1739 and looted Hindustan and was carrying lot of Hindustan treasures and nearly 2200 Hindu women along with him. The news spread like a fire and was heard by Sardar Jassa Singh who was the Commander of the Sikh army at that time. He decided to attack Nadir Shah's Kafila on the same midnight. He did so and rescued all the Hindu women and they were safely sent to their homes. It didn't happen only once but thereafter whenever any Abdaalis or Iranis had attacked and looted Hindustan and were trying to carry the treasures and Hindu women alo! ng with them for selling them in Abdal markets, the Sikh army although fewer in numbers but were brave hearted and attacked them at midnight,12 O'clock and rescued women. After that time when there occurred a similar incidence, people started to contact the Sikh army for their help and Sikhs used to attack the raider's at Midnight, 12 O'clock. Nowadays, these "smart people" and some Sikh enemies who are afraid of Sikhs, have spread these words that at 12 O'clock, the Sikhs go out of their senses. This historic fact was the reason which made me smile over that person as I thought that his Mother or Sister would be in trouble! and wants my help and was reminding me by saying off 'Sardarji Barah Baj Gaye'
"Its easy to joke on a Sardar, but It's too difficult to be a Sardar"

looking for new b()nd

every one is leaving... leaving behind tear's in my eyes of myself being rendered alone and happiness of them being moving towards greater heights.... but i have to be truthful to myself "i am not ready to pay for their happiness.." i have nothing to remember except that: himanshu was always there to teach me in 1 hour about the majors, dubey was there to tell me that so jao ab kuch nahin ho sakta... sikka was always there to make me realize that if i am not a successful engineer that doesnot certify me as a failed human being... vimal was always there with his typical "do shabd" about life, alok "i cannt say".... always running the non existent race that whom poorvi will reply first and politely... who will have more friends...uski oscar winning performances(only he knows) cann't forget those moments when sikka was happy that i have acheived something for myself...how can i forget that meri chappal ghis gayeen himanshu bhai ke pyar mein.... ram ko "pagal" passion for success , varun always weeping in the corner.... "this man is actually wastage of flesh and "non-existent" heart"... dubey jesus! the list is growing... anyway i cann't forget that" A NEW B()ND WAS CREATED IN THE ASHES"...... May GOD help them all in scaling greater heights.....